Sometimes Awkward, Sometimes Brilliant: A Journey Of Self-Discovery

Every NewYears I try to set a goal. Not so much a resolution but a goal for the year.  This year (2021) it was to read more, write more, and to submit my work to more places and try to get it out there. It's a hard thing to do, share your work with the world expecting all sorts of criticism, good and bad. I entered a few contests so far this year and also submitted a piece to be a reader for the Saskatchewan's Writers Guild's Book Bytes sessions. I really didn't think I had a chance. I got picked to read... Wow, so that was a shock. So I will be sharing one of my non-fiction pieces. The one I selected is about my near-death experience when I was 16 years old. Some people know what happened, some don't know the details, but not many have heard the full story that I wrote back in 2016. Ten years after it happened.  It brings up emotions and sometimes it's hard to read but it is raw and real and you will be able to hear it. July 14th at noon join me as I read my pi...

Do your personality traits change and evolve? As I have aged over the years and been involved in many different organizations, boards, jobs, and teams I have realized I do have some set traits. Recently at work, we had to take a survey and find out what our DiSC placement was. I was slightly surprised at where I fell on the circle and what that meant for me.  Of course, I assume traits can change and evolve over time and if I would have taken this test about five years ago I would have placed extremely different, but some traits have carried through my existent so far. So depending on the situation humans can change and adapt their personalities to suit the mood, can't they? Here are some set trait examples for specific personalities on the DiSC circle. Dominance • Direct • Firm • Strong-willed • Forceful • Results-oriented  influence • Outgoing • Enthusiastic • Optimistic • High-spirited • Lively Conscientiousness • Analytical • Reserved • Precise • Private • Systematic Stea...

Is there a cycle of poverty? A cycle is poor money management? How does one break the cycle? Bankruptcy? Consumer proposals? Foreclosure? All the research insists that there is most certainly a cycle of poverty. Also, known as a development trap or poverty trap.  Research states that when a child is born into a poverty-stricken family the cycle continues. It is said to affect families that have no financial gain or capital, education, or connections.  Upon further reading, there are different types of poverty. Generational and situational. I'm not going to break it all down and start talking economics because a) not my idea of a fun night and b) I am not qualified to explain it, hell I hardly understand it. But I will say this. It sucks!  My life has been a series of events that either lead to me falling further behind and gaining more debt and drowning in overwhelming financial stress, or continuing to stay above the waterline but always feel like I am drowni...

When you are a kid you have many ideas of what life might be like when you get older.  -Like having a million animals and having them all in your house.  -Being rich and able to eat kraft dinner at every meal.   -Never having to brush your teeth.  -Eating cake for breakfast.  -Being a superstar singer and travelling the world. As a kid, you have such a skewed vision of what life is like as an adult. You don't understand the adult stresses and struggles that your parents faced. But there are many times I recall getting a glimpse into adult life and I didn't like it. I never wanted to be like my parents growing up. I never wanted to take after my mom or dad. I always wanted to be my own person. With my own goals and my dreams.  My dad was good at so many things. He was an agro mechanic, he worked as a highway crewman. He did farming jobs, he fixed cars and trucks. He built things and broke things. He was a great father figure. But I never wan...

During the past year and a half, the world has been in chaos. A virus has been sweeping the world affecting virtually all of the world.  COVID-19: "It's no worse than the flu!" or so that's what the social medial doctors told me...Guess where they got there MD? Perhaps Ask Jeeves... Anyhow, we have had to learn to adapt and change, learn what parts of our lives we no longer need to give emotional investment to. Our personal emotional 'give a fuck' has diminished to the bare minimum.  People were fighting over toilet paper, Lysol wipes, and hand sanitizer. I understand those last two but I still don't get the TP shortage of 2020. It has been over a year since the first case of COVID in my area and luckily I haven't gotten sick, nor has my close family. I have had friends get it, some of which were 'Social Media MDs' they still never changed their tune.  It now seems that we are at the end of the pandemic so people are starting to act normal , bu...

I have been trying to write for years. Short stories, blogs, novels, poems, articles, basically you name it I have tried it. I never seem to continue on one path. My brain goes in multiple directions continuously and I can't keep working on one single idea. Some days it's frustrating. For example, I can be watching a tv show, reading something on my phone or in a book, and also having a conversation in person with my partner and not even think twice about doing all these things at once. Meanwhile, other people will wait for me to stop what I am doing, look at them, and then they will start talking to me. As if I wasn't paying attention to them. It tends to get better as they get to know me. I have issues where I think everyone else brain works like mine. I'll be talking to someone while they are reading something or writing an email and I'll be done with my sentence waiting for an answer when I realize they didn't hear a word I said. It can be super annoying an...

Welcome to my blog! Everyone is on a journey of self-discovery. Some might be just starting, some might be old pros, but no one is ever done on their journey.  Join me as I share some of my life stories and my self-discovery. It will be happy, sad, cringe-worthy, and as always awkwardly brilliant.