Just when you're not expecting it...

I saw this on social media and I know I haven't given a life update recently it's been a while but due to court papers I cannot disclose information. I can however share this...

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"To the Parent Who Has to Hand Their Child Over to Someone They Don’t Trust

It’s a special kind of hurt.

Handing your child—the one you carried, nurtured, protected— over to someone you know isn’t safe.

Not just emotionally unavailable.

Not just “different parenting styles.”

But unsafe.

And the world calls it co-parenting.

The court calls it fair.

The law calls it a right.

But it doesn’t feel right.

Not when your stomach twists during every drop-off.

Not when your child comes back quiet, or clingy, or scared in ways they can’t explain.

Not when your heart screams “This isn’t okay”—but no one is listening.

You try to hide the panic in your smile.

You say, “Have fun, baby,” and you wave goodbye knowing damn well you might not sleep until they come back.

Because you don’t know what’s happening behind closed doors.You don’t know what’s being said to them, what’s being done to them, how they’re being shaped by someone who once twisted you.

And it’s not just fear.

It’s heartbreak.

It’s the paralyzing feeling of being powerless while trying to protect what matters most.

But let me tell you this:

Your child feels you.

They feel your love even when they’re not in your arms. They carry your strength even when they’re in unsafe places. And one day—whether it’s tomorrow or years from now—they will know.

They’ll know who showed up in love.

Who stayed steady.

Who protected them, even when the system failed you.

You are not weak for being forced into silence.

You are not less of a parent because the law calls harm “shared parenting.”

You are strong in a way most will never understand.

And I know this:

Even when you can’t shield them,

your love still builds armor.

You may not be with them every minute—

but your presence is written on their heart.

And no one—not even a monster—can take that away."

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I saw the above post on social media and it broke me. It is exactly how I feel lately. It is exactly what I am living. It is so hard to believe it's what is best for all involved. But I need to trust the system otherwise I'd go crazy.

-Keep strong and keep pushing forward one day this will all be a memory .... Sigh 😔